By the way, I really hate posting pictures of my feet. You may or may not know I do not like feet. At all. I don't especially like my own feet. I definitely do not like anyone else's feet either. I think I've given Sean a foot rub like twice, ever and vice versa. Don't get me wrong, I like a good foot rub, but the thought of other people touching my feet gives me the willies. Sorry for the side story, but it is going to be an adjustment posting pictures not only of the scale, but of my feet too. Sorry for the gross-ness.
Back to the point of this post.
|Weigh in Wednesday - Week 1: 257.2 lbs|
I know it has only been two days so I stepped on the scale not expecting a change at all, really. But down a pound and I am not complaining. I've had two perfect eating days calorie wise and I'm really happy about that.
For the first time in my life, I think I understand this. I understand and want this more than I did the last time. I now understand this post Liz from One Twenty Five posted. I understand how she talks about her weight, eating, and exercise are the one thing in her life she can control. I get that and I'm feeling that way too. I can't control if I get hired (or not) for a job I really want. I can't control a lot of things, but I can control how I nourish my body and I take comfort in that. I get it now and I know I didn't understand it before.
I know what you might be thinking. How can this time around be any different from when you started two years ago? Really, I can't explain it, but it feels different this time. Maybe it's the fact that my wedding ring has been feeling tight, especially when my hands are warm since my fingers get more sausage like when it's warm. Maybe it is the fact I can only really fit into three pairs of my jeans, all of which I've bought in the last six months. Maybe it's the dream (nightmare) I had about having to get into my wedding dress again for some party and it wouldn't fit at all. Maybe it's a combination of all of this, but I feel different this time.
Anyway, sorry about this very (unintentional) long post. It definitely wasn't planned! Have a lovely Wednesday.