I've been wanting to write this post for a while now. While I have lost 36.7 pounds since beginning this lifestyle change on July 28, 2011, it is nowhere near my goal weight of 160 pounds.
I know the reason why I haven't been losing more weight. I'm getting comfortable at my weight right now. I'm at the weight I was in college and my clothes that were too small are fitting again. It feels great to be able to wear jeans I haven't worn in over a year. I thought I was being silly when last spring I moved a bunch of clothes that were too small.
On Saturday, while doing laundry I needed a pair of jeans to wear out of the apartment. The only jeans I had are way too big. I could pull them down with them buttoned and zipped. I slid a belt on and kept those suckers on.
I'm proud of how far I've come, but I am not happy with my weight right now. I have a beautiful wedding dress to slim down one size to fit into. I had a dream last night I recieved a phone call from the bridal shop letting me know my dress was in and I needed to come in for my first fitting. I woke up terrified and immediately checked my phone to see if that was indeed true. Thankfully, it is not. But. I still need to lose more weight to fit into that gorgeous white dress. I really can't wait to wear it. My mom will agree, it's pretty damn awesome.
I know what it takes to lose weight. I just need to do it. It's a motivation issue. I wish I could slap the picture of my wedding dress all over to keep reminding me that if I don't work on the weight loss, it is not going to fit. Every morning in my half sleep daze of turning my alarms on my cell phone off, I look at the pictures my mom took of me in the dress. Every. Single. Morning. I can't have pictures of my wedding dress laying around my apartment though, so not posting it everywhere. I definitely do not want Sean to see it.
Any motivation tips?
P.S. Sean we're working out tonight. I might be running...